Yang Patah Tumbuh Yang hilang Berganti

Assalamualaikum.. Hey Yaw!! What's UP!!?? cerita hari ni mengenai yang patah tumbuh, yang hilang berganti.. hurm.. kenapa tajuk dia camni? semuanya mungkin berkaitan dengan perasaan kot.. hahaha..

Kita selalu dengar yang patah tumbuh yang hilang berganti.. adakah kita sedar perkara ni memang berlaku dalam kehidupan seharian kita? ya, ianya memang berlaku dalam kehidupan seharian kita..

Jom kita sambung cite.. haha.. hari ni, yang patah tumbuh yang hilang berganti ni aku kaitkan dengan perasaan.. haha.. sedar tak sedar lah kan, tau2 je aku dah single.. ramai jugak yang xtau aku dah single.. semua tanya aku pasal si dia.. ex aku tu lah.. haha.. penat aku jawab, aku dah xde pape dengan dia.. ntah la.. kdg2 rasa malas nak jawab dah.. haha.. x kisah lah.. tapi satu benda yg aku sedar, aku byk belajar dari kesilapan aku waktu aku dengan dia.. =)

cerita tentang yang patah tumbuh yang hilang berganti ni, aku tgk, sejak aku dah xde pape dgn dia, aku nampak dia ada pengganti.. cepat betul dia ni.. maklumlah, budak canik, comel, mestilah kejap je dpt pengganti.. lelaki mana yang xnak perempuan cantik, comel, manja dan sebagainya kan?? haha.. mungkin aku yg bodoh lepaskan dia kot.. xtau lah kan?? haha...

lepas aku lepaskan dia, tak leh tipu lah kan.. memang sedih gila lah.. tapi buat pe aku nak tunjuk.. aku yg lepaskan dia.. tapi pape pun, Alhamdulillah, dalam perit2 pun, ada jugak kebahagian.. Aku masih ada kawan2 aku.. kalau sebelum ni aku memilih untuk berkawan, kini tidak lagi.. hargai semua orang yang ada di sekeliling aku.. hidup lebih bahagia bila kita capai keseimbangan dalam hidup ni.. haha..

tapi yang paling best, aku bersyukur sgt dapat kenal dengan sorang budak ketot ni.. hahaha.. boleh dia tipu aku dia cakap tinggi dia tu agak tinggi la jugak.. mati2 aku igt dia tinggi.. hahaha.. sampai la satu hari dimana dia mintak tolong aku teman dia pegi bank sebab dia takda transport nak pegi.. dah la aku tak pernah jumpa dia ni.. kenal2 dalam fb je.. huhu.. waktu first time aku amik dia tu, waktu tu dah la aku kerja.. ntah camne aku boleh ada kan masa pegi jumpa dia.. hahaha.. pak cik aku pun bagi je aku kuar kejap walhal kami punyalah byk apoinment dengan org lain.. haha.. aku pun pe lagi, start kete terus pegi amik dia kat kolej dia..

waktu dia naik kete dgn aku, xde la pulak aku perasan yg dia ni ketot.. hha.. sampai je kat bank tu, aku pun turun la, waktu tu baru aku perasan, yang tinggi dia lebih kurang mak aku je.. haha.. mak aku pon ketot jugak.. haha.. =)

terus aku tanya tinggi dia berapa, dia gelak je bgtahu benda betul.. tertipu aku.. hahaha.. kaunter bank tu tinggi, nampak dia lagi ketot.. hahaha.. tapi comel je.. dengan uniform kuning dia tu.. ntah la... aku tertarik pulak.. huhu.. dua tiga kali jugak la aku jadi driver dia.. hahaha.. ntah la.. sejak dia hadir ni, aku happy je.. kenapa ek? aku suka dia ke? aku pun xtau.. mungkin jugak aku suka dia.. tapi aku xnak cakap, sebab takut aku cepat berubah hati..

hidup aku sekarang bertambah baik.. emosi aku lebih stabil.. tiap2 malam aku senyum je sebelum tidur.. hahaha.. tidak seperti malam2 sebelum ni.. suram, sedih teringat kisah lama kan? hhaha.. tapi apa pun aku bersyukur sgt2 dengan kehadiran dia.. apa yang buat aku tertarik dengan dia ni, hurm, ada la beberapa little things tu.. hahaha.. tak nak cerita sebab, i won't let these little things slip out of my mouth.. hahaha.. sampai lah aku betul2 pasti dengan perasaan aku ni.. xD

hahaha... xtau lah nak cakap apa dah.. nanti aku cerita lagi dalam next post.. huhu.. aku chow dulu.. nak pegi solat jumaat.. =)

Assalamualaikum.. FRESH ME FRESH STORY!! =)

Feelings~

Assalamualaikum.. Hey Yaw.. What's UP??!! today, let's talk about feeling.. My feeling.. What are my feelings? What is my feeling? Do I have any feelings?? Yes I do have feelings..

Well, for those who really follow my blog from the beginning should know my story.. Regarding my feelings.. hurm.. Recently I don't really know what i felt.. Sometimes I feel sad, sometimes i feel happy, sometimes i feel like i'm all alone, sometimes i can be heartless.. I tried to discover the answer and yes i do found out.. It is all stared after i broke up with my girl..

Its really hard to tell, yeah my ego manage to cover up everything.. Dear ego, you were really good in covering my true feelings.. Time to let your guard down and show the world the weaker part of me.. Well frankly i tell ya guys, i do and still have feelings towards her.. I know i do let her go.. Yes i did let her go.. Even though during that time i was confuse.. But i made up my mind.. I can't let her suffer anymore..

When i was with her, i create some problems and just go on with it without trying to fix it.. and now i've started working as a site supervisor with my uncle's company, i don't really have time with her.. Then i discover that she has a guy that could make her day like i used to.. I feel happy for her.. I know i did the same thing.. I was trying to be friend with my exes.. I know she din't like it but still i keep on doing it..

I know i hurt her so much.. I know she was suffering.. but she didn't really show it.. till my friend did tell me everything that she felt.. I do realize that i always did things according to my way without consider with her feelings.. I realize it was my fault.. there's nothing i can do right now.. i hope she's happy with him.. and i can see that guy is always there for her when she need him.. there's nothing to worry about..

Every night before i shut my eyes, i always think of her..
Recalling every memories that we had done together for 1 year and 7 months..
Recalling every surprise that i've made
Recalling every moment when we were togeher..
And sometimes there's some tears in my eyes..
I really hope she is happy right now..
I'm not the one for her..
I've learned my lesson..
Maybe this is the reason why i'm feeling sad..
I feel depressed..
I feel lonely without her..
I feel the loss..
All i can do right now is just go on..
Focusing on my job right now is really helping me to overcome my sadness..
I really hope she is happy right now..
I really really hope she is happy.. =')

Well, enough with this sad story.. Till my next post homies!!

*think positive and lead a happy lifestyle.. mine is hectic! xD
Assalamualaikum!!
FRESH ME FRESH STORY!!